Becoming the Moon
Embracing natural rhythms, and understanding the voices in your head
I haven't felt much like taking pictures lately.
That's because external reality hardly reflects the truth anymore.
Everything about my world feels liminal.
Every day my body changes, as much a home to my child as it is to me. My days are split between my beautiful woodland home and the bustling New York apartment that now feels so constricting. I feel caught in the web of identity, casting off titles and ideologies like pieces of clothing that no longer fit. I wonder how many ever really did, how many I forced myself into out of necessity or coercion.
But this isn't strictly about leaving things behind. This has very much been a process of remembering--rediscovering parts of myself lost to time and memory, excavating ancestral truths, collecting artifacts of self along the way.
As I turn ever inwards, I hear the rhythm of life more clearly.
Several years ago I lay on the rough carpeted floor of my apartment in the dark. My dog slept peacefully at my back while beside me my husband tugged at the strings of reality, verbally unravelling the masculine experience and its purpose. His words held all the gravity and wonder of someone seeing for the first time how all things fit together. No response was needed. All that was required in that moment was a silent witness. Through the window the Moon beamed down, a soft ghostly light high in the sky.
And at that moment, I gently acknowledged my own inherent cosmic femininity, a lunar presence with a rhythm all its own.
It wasn't an easy association. I'd spent my whole life fighting the Moon's influence in every conceivable way, from the laughably literal to the maddeningly occult.
Read more about my path to lunar discovery in this week’s Life, Magically post.
In case you missed it…
We all imagine conversations with friends, family, even strangers about our actions, but what do they really mean? What do the voices we internalize really say about our self-confidence and decision-making process?
Listen to the Dark Mirror of Projection on Love and a Little Magic now!